Sunday, May 17, 2009

An empty chair around the table


i would love to find the exact words, a phrase that could make it up to you, to say what you wanna hear, what you need to hear. And over all, say anything i may say without sounding ridiculous or cliche. I dont wanna say what everyones tells you. I know i cant really even wonder how are you feeling, and i'm pretty sure i couldnt be on your shoes, i just couldnt be able to stand the pain. That pain i can see in your eyes. That pain you arent letting out, but you can calm down or disimulate.

im so sorry, its all i can say. And i know im not the only one who have told you that, so does it really help? to have a buch of pple arount telling you how sorry they feel? i know you feel the support, but nothing will change the fact that he's gone, so thats another reason why im sorry. Im sorry i cant really comfort you, im sorry i cant bring him back to you, that my words wont change the reality and that no one's will.

it would take me years to get over something like this. Streght, faith, optimistism, security, you luckily got all those things and your family couldnt be more blessed to have you now and there, cause you will be a big support for all of them. He'll be there looking after you, taking care of you, giving you advice in someway of another. Pray, God will make him listen. You cant really see it but while your mom is crying hes next to her hugging her, while your brothers cant understand and accept it he's there conforting them, and while you are here trying to offset that pain, that fear to what comes next he's and he'll be always there supporting you.

The room is filled of pain and so is your heart. Your eyes barely can contain the tears, as your head barely cant stop the confused thoughts. No one can really understand. I can be sorry, but cant really find a way to make you stop feeling sad, desesperate and angry at life. Im sorry.

-To a best friend

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