It's true.

Your eyes, your voice, your smile, your heat, I can't be without them. Don't ever go away, because I already put my shields down and I need someone to protect me.

What's going on?

I dunno if you have notice, even though it's pretty easy to see, that my lasts post have been all about you, yeah you. And well I guess that means how important you are in my life. So I really can't be as if nothing happens, after you tell me you have something to tell me. Anxiety is killing me. Questions are all around me. I feel like I can't think in anything else! I just can't! I have millions of things to do, but I am still here, not moving, asking myself hundreds of questions, imagining what could be that thing that's a "weight in your chest". You mean so much, you do, and that's why, that's why I am feeling like this right now.

I am doing the best I can, I promise, but i still feel like this.

When two become one

Beyond our bodies, beyond what we could touch,

more than a impulse, more than attraction, more than just chemicals,

just more and beyond everything, everything.

Intimacy is such a little word now, its not enough.

Two becoming one, two heartbeats synchronized 

your breathing, my breathing, our breathing its one now, just one.

For first time in our life we realize something was missing in our selfs
Me. You. It's amazing how it seems that we fit perfectly in the other's arms.

For first time in our life we finally  get a clue of the complete meaning of love.

The perfect balance between pleasure and the deepness of emotions,

Between you and me, between our hearts and bodies. 

A balance in which you cannot separate it's two dimensions.

They are one, they have become one.

I'm complete now and it's all because of Love, your Love.

....

Touching Sky

I discovered how amazing human body is. 

I mean, our movement possibilities, 

our emerging energy every time we decide to reach some place, our senses that let us feel all those movements, that energy and the contact, anytime we let us just go with the music and dance to the beat. 

Feels warm, inside and out side. 

You can even feel the hundreds of connections that are inside your body, that take the sensation i am talking about everywhere, 

even to the most unexpected places. 

I think you even get a different view of life after you let go your body (and heart), that way

I guess it is cause you just opened to a complete new side of sensations and freedom that you have never experimented before

or maybe i am just a little too crazy

excuse me, a little too passionate i meant.

After this, I just found out a new meaning for the chorus of the song let go:

"so let go, just get in, oh, it's so amazing here,

 it's alright, 'cause there's beauty in the breakdown"  

Yeah i just ruin the deep meaning of the song, i know, it's just that the song was playing when i was writing this. Sorry again, it just made sense to me.


....

I finally found you, my missing puzzle piece

Warm, the dictionary says that warm is:

1. Somewhat hotter than temperate; having or producing a comfortable and agreeable degree of heat; moderately hot.

2. Having the natural heat of living beings.

3. Preserving or imparting heat.

4. Having or causing a sensation of unusually high body heat, as from exercise or hard work; overheated.

5. Marked by enthusiasm; ardent.

6. Characterized by liveliness, excitement, or disagreement; heated.

7. Marked by or revealing friendliness or sincerity; cordial.

8. Loving; passionate.

9. Excitable, impetuous, or quick to be aroused.

10. Close to discovering, guessing, or finding something, as in certain games.

It's true, its all of that, ALL. Being together, when we are so close or even just holding hands, it doesn't matter,is so warm. 

Vientos De Invierno

Tan solo quiero verte y cada vez mas.

Incluso a veces siento que es una necesidad.

Cuando de pronto te extranio y no hay manera de verte ya.

Quiero oir tu voz, quiero que me hagas reir,

especialmente cuando ando al borde del caos y no quiero ni sentir.

Te quiero, te quiero y cada vez mas.

No se como has logrado llegar a ese punto en el que no te quiero soltar.

Ojala con decir tan solo una palabra pudieras aparecer,

sin tardar ni un segundo, automaticamente quiero tenerte cerca otra vez.

Como esos vientos de invierno que ya se estan sintiendo,

quiero que vueles a mi lado, me rodees y me hagas sentir esas cosquillas por todo el cuerpo,

que me robes un suspiro, un beso, una risa, una sonrisa,

y no me dejes nunca en tiempos de pesadillas.

AWESOME FACE

When life gives you lemons, just put awesome face, laugh and

go on!

You know you don't feel something when you THINK you do

When you really feel something, you just do, you don't worry about thinking about it.

That's the awesomess of it, you don't start going over it and over it in your head, 
you just let it be.  
So I might not be ready yet to mean what i said.


It's so easy to guess what was that I said.

Animal

When we dont get to see each other for a while, 

something its definitely missing. 

I miss your words, your company, your jokes, your smile, your lovely eyes.

our magic.

But I also miss your kisses, your arms around me holding me tight, so tight, your sighs, your touch.

How could we ever separate those two sides of our nature?

We are not only rational and sentimental beings, 

we are also as any other creature in the world,

we have instincts,

we are animals.

Is that okey?

Well, we cant stop being something we are,

 so I guess its fine to feel both ways.

But lets not give anything priority over our magic.

Cause sometimes, when we are together we ruin that magic we get to have, just sometimes we forget we need nothing else than just our magic.

Aburrida

Tan aburrida que ni se que escribir. Pasa de vez en cuando verdad?

Solo se ve viene a la mente que necesito verte y que te extrano.

Tuve razon todo el tiempo

No hay peor cosa que lastimar a alguien que uno quiere muchisimo. Pero peor es que aquella persona lastimada nuble sus pensamientos con odio y resentimiento hacia uno y piense que solo se le quiso hacer dano. Aun peor es cuando se trata de alguien con quien se tuvo (tiene?) una gran amistad y esta se ve ahora afectada por todo este drama. Antes de que todo empezara plantee que sucederia si llegaramos al punto en el que estamos hoy y me prometiste que no tirariamos nuestra gran amistad por la borda JAMAS. Dime donde quedaron tus palabras?


Si deseas piensa que te menti, 
Si deseas piensa que nunca te quise,
Si deseas piensa que soy lo peor de lo peor,
Piensa todo lo que quieras pensar, 
aunque me lastime que pienses asi no importa
piensa, cree, escribe y habla de mi lo que te plazca.

Love and Me

I guess we will never clearly know when we are inlove, we will just feel it.

But why is that feeling supposed to be the best feeling in the world, that one thing everyone wants and that everyone its looking for? 

Love can hurt, can damage you so bad, can reduce you to tears, can destroy your entire hopes and dreams.

Then why would we still look for that?

Could be that I'm too proud to ever accept that I need someone (that is not family) so much, 

could be that, cause of everything I've been through, I'm scared to hell to give someone 
the power to destroy me.

Teenager Soul

It doesn't matter how much i could say I've grown up, I'm still young, naive and sometimes even stupid.

Maybe it'll never matter how much I could really grow up, there will be always times when I wouldn't be experienced enough and I'll make completely stupid choices.

It won't matter if I'm 19 or 49 sometimes I'm just not gonna want to wake up early to do whatever I have to do. It won't matter how old I'm, I would sometimes wanna send it all to hell.

I guess that may be what make us humans

Eres

Como una montana rusa a la que me quiero arriesgar a subir, aunque no creo que deba porque se que probablemente me quiera bajar una vez que halla empezado el viaje. 

Como una apuesta a la que no se si debo entrar porque no estoy tan segura de ser capaz de entregar aquello que estoy arriesgando en caso de perder, porque se que puedo perder.

Como una playa, de agua fria en un  dia increiblemente soleado, en la que no se si debo nadar porque han subido la bandera roja, esa que indica la marea alta. 

Como una pedazo de mi pastel favorito que se que no debo ni probar porque luego sentire remordimiento, pero que quiero comer hasta la ultima migaja. 

Como aquella pregunta que quiero lanzar, pero que no me atrevo por miedo a quedar en ridiculo frente al resto.

Como aquel secreto que me muero por contar, pero que se que debo de guardar.

Eso eres. 

Por eso me es dificil enfrentarte, seria mas sencillo evadirte, bloquearte, repelerte, vivir sin ti.  

Pero lo mas sencillo y practico nunca han sido mi primera eleccion.

De vuelta

Sera que de pronto me volvio esa necesidad de hablar con alguien cuando no tenia a nadie cerca. Y sera que luego de mucho tiempo decidi quedarme hasta muy tarde despierta, ignorando completamente que manana tengo mil cosas que hacer. Sera que cuando uno va creciendo sacrifica demasiado lo que a uno le gustaba hacer, toma menos riesgos, se obliga a ser mas responsable, etc, etc, etc.

No quiero dejar de ser aquella persona que viene a mi mente cuando pienso en quien soy. No quiero que dentro de algun tiempo me mire al espejo, me ponga a pensar en mi vida, me arrepienta de mil cosas, sienta que no ha valido para nada la pena y que hay mil cosas que aun no llegue a hacer.

Quiero vivir, no quiero resignarme; quiero sentir, no quiero esconderme.