Was i losing mysefl??

Days seem to be passing in a normal speed, not so fast, not so slow. Its like the hurraicane already past, the city is made a mest, but finally rests. I know a worst storm comes, but well until it arrives i guess im gonna take it easy. Like me and my friend S used to say to my best friend M when we were kids : "relax relax relax" we were so silly! hahaha.

But sometimes we dont figure out how full of wisdom child's words are until one day we listen instead of hear them, clearly and slow. After we fall, get hurt and make mistakes and we get to learn something, then we are like i heard that before...

Bah! i dont like growing up, adults think they are too good to listen children. They made a mest of their lifes and worry to much about money. They dont really enjoy the trip lifes offer. They miss part of their soul and call silly to the funny behaviour. They are...cold!

Growing up doesnt include finding weird shapes on coulds, pillow fights, sugar hiperactivity, spreading coke from your nose, getting your new dress dirty, walking in all stars shoes the whole day, staring at night to the stars, losing your time, dreaming awake, being irresponsible, forgetting your homework, be scared, looking under your bed before going to sleep...

That's why i will never accept the fact of growing up. I rather keep it this way, even if i have to stand the coming storm this vulnerable. I dont wanna mix and lose myself in the strom i dont wanna tear in a hundred cold peices and forget me. Forget to forget growing up. Even if things are calm down by now, i miss school and specially my friends.

Today to find them at university was like finding a some monkeys (no ofense) on the sea, two paralel universes joining, i felt i had lost something, i felt nostalgic, i suddenly missed the past, i felt i grew up"